I don't like sunsets...TELL ME WHY!? Okay...here it goes.

I thought tonight, “I hate sunset.” I saw the trailer for “Where the wild things are.”, and there’s a few spots where they are looking at what looks like the sunset and I thought to myself, if it were sunrise I’d like it. That means a start, a beginning. Sunset, as a kid to me meant time to go home. My time with friends was done and whatever was going on was at an end. I see that and it makes me sad as I think of what it is like when things have to stop.

Even now, when I am tired and my wife and little one have to go to bed, I’m sad. The time with them is ending and I want them to experience what I love. I know most of it is boring to them but it is so much better with some one there. Isn’t that the thing? Why do it if no one is there to share it with you?

I love to play guitar but haven’t played it more than an average of once every few months. Playing by myself I improve and get better for the times I play with others around: but I love to play when my wife is in the room. Not because I need such support and my ego stroked, but because I like her being there and I like it when someone is around. I could never say a word to her while I played and could go without hearing a word about it when I am done: Just having her there is enough for me.

So anyway, I don’t like sunsets even though I am with the ones I love save my oldest boy and girl. They trigger the end of things to get ready for tomorrow. And to me, the now and present is so precious I want it to last and last and never go away.

If I were a ghost one day, I would want to have my guitar and set on the porch of our perfect house and play my guitar till the sun sets. And when it does, I’ll keep on playing to myself and fill the air with comfort and love so they would know I miss them and was always there. I’d hope they wouldn’t be scared. But I would hope they could feel me there every time they sat on the porch and saw that sunset and say “Your daddy would still be playing trying to make the sun stay up so he could be with us every minute he could.”